Monday, August 3, 2009

Love, and it's definition through my eyes.

Someone can spend a life time pondering the hours away at the simple question, "what IS love?"
The answer can not be told through a small diary of a blog web site.
For those whom have experienced the true feeling, you might be wondering how something can give someone the greatest pleasure known to man kind, and the next minute you are blinded by the pure emotion of a break down. Something so powerful it has the chance to satisfy, and destroy, all at the same time.
Love can show someone their soul purpose in life. This is what it showed me. My purpose. Since a little girl I have told myself I will walk the edges of the earth looking for my true love. I knew once I found it, there would be no letting go.
The only thing is..I never expected to find such a love so soon in life. I mean sure I have felt it with more than one person, but isn't that how you know the next one is real? Through comparison of the earlier emotions, and the current? That might be part of how I knew I found it. But the rest? First sight.

Go on, call me ignorant and tell me there could be no such thing. But you're wrong. The moment our eyes met that day, I simply just knew. I couldn't possibly find an easier way to describe the feeling.
It's as if I believed in past lives, you were in mine. You were mine. It's as if I already knew you, and if I didn't talk to you that day, I would have missed out on my soul purpose in life.

To live and love.

Now I dare you to show me one love that has never encountered a problem. Without anything to overcome together, what will you ever have to look forwards to?
Fighting and disagreeing every so often is only healthy. Scientific fact.

Throughout my experience, I have had my share of arguments. I have taken breaks before, be it my choice at the time or not. But during the separations it has only brought my mind to realization. What is it? I realized that I don't need to be on my own in order to find myself. I don't need to, since I have already found myself in you.

After each hard time I have encountered, I have never felt happier than running back into the arms of the one I know I love, and I know loves me back. The overwhelming feeling of joy that brings me, only helps me know for sure that it is the true work of God. Being with you, I know that God is not only listening to all of my prayers, but he is responding as well.
Love is the last thing I could ever take lightly.

At this point, I would regret holding anything back, therefor I should spill each feeling inside me, shan't I?

After losing love once before, the second I was sure of this with you, I promised myself I could never give it up. I am certain I could never find another love like the one I am breathing this moment.

No matter what happens in the end, or right now, or tomorrow, or whenever, I will never give up or move on. I have found what I have vowed to search for, and I have found my purpose. That's you. I will be here each second of each minute. Each hour of each day, dreaming. Waiting. For you.
I can't say goodbye to this feeling. I can't lose myself.
I'm not ready to lose you, or my purpose. Nor will I ever be.

No matter where life will take you, know that I am by your side, and you are in my heart. If we make it or not, I will only be waiting for that day when we reunite.
Then again, how could there be a day in the future to reunite when we will not part? I will be here with you. As you, me.
I'm not giving up. Not now. Not tomorrow. Not ever.
I know where I belong. I know my place, and my reason being here. I found it, and I'm keeping it.

Sometimes I wish all English would flee my tongue, making me unable to attempt to tell you how much this all means to me. I just want to express myself. It's what I do. I don't want to be asked about it, or commented on. I just want to get it out. I don't even need anyone to understand me.
I only need you to understand me. I love you.

This is true love and I could put anything on that promise.True love can conquer absolutely anything. Don't lose faith. Don't give up. I never will.

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